So Preppsterdreamin isn't the place where I expose too much of my personal life. I actually like to keep the personal side of my life just that personal, but in the last two weeks my mind has been in such a tizzy. I can't seem to think straight and I think I need to just put it into words. I think i'm a bit of a mess because I'm in such a pivotal point in my academic career, and life in general and the only man that would understand isn't here. My father Marvin Blagmon could say like 5 words and calm me the hell down with great ease. My mind has been racing because I feel losed at times and don't know why. I just remember times coming home and he and I would talk for hours about nothing, or everything. These days I have no one to talk to and it's not the same. I bury myself in Preppsterdreamin because it is a release, and being able to express myself through my form of art (fashion) helps me when I'm feeling my lowest.
As you can see he also took pride in my art and supported me in whatever I did. He was a true legend im beyond lost without him. There are days that go by that I wish it was all a dream. Only thing I can be happy with is he and I were in such a good place when he died. He was my role dog, my role model, my hero. I just wish I could talk to him and get his counsel on what i need to do next. I feel lost all the time, and no one lends the hand I need from him.
Through all my sickness and health issues he's never made me feel bad about what I might have taken away from him because he did it because he was an amazing parent. I'm starting to forget who I was before he left me. I just feel like a different person all the time, and everyday seems like a challenge. I'm grateful for all you here on Prepptserdreamin who let me be myself. I'll continue to showcase myself on this platform while i continue to heal, Thank you all for your continued support. And thankyou for letting me open myself alittle on this platform.
Peace and Love..
Dream a Little Dream of Me...